That's why I dare to type out my feeling now.
All those pretty words I said to you, is to make sure that you can put me down.
I always knew, you are suffering in silence when I eye contact with you,
your eyes looks so sad, that I don't even know how to consult you.
so I just smile as much as possible, since when I smiled, I laughed, you will follow as well.
I can just assume that your life now is much better than with me.
Since that, you have someone that can take care of you.
I'm always feeling sorry that I couldn't give you what you want, " Future"
No doubt, everyone wants a relationship where that can feel their future.
While be with me, you can't share anything with me.
So if you remember, our last call, I cried out loud keep repeating sorry
Yea, I mean it, I really feel so sorry towards you.. even now
I know, it is nearly impossible to forget someone that is so meaningful to you
That's why I never plan to forget you before
I also knew, that you won't forget me. Well, I don't know how to put in the words, is just my feeling, my believes.
I always believes you.
For now, I stopped finding you
Because I knew, how much suffer you gain when you face me, just like when I face you.
Really, is enough.
I don't want to cause more pain on you anymore
I don't mind just disappear if you feel happy with it.
They said, Libra is willing to make all the changes and take all the pain and scarifies.
Yea, I'm.
I don't need you to know, doesn't mean I don't feel so.
What is the point of letting you know? Claim your credits ?
Nah, that's not what I want, all I want is just your smile
As long as you smiled, every pain will just wore off.
I know, you are still hiding everything by yourself, baring everything by yourself
I wish that you will know,
I'm always here, somewhere that you couldn't see, couldn't know,
sharing your happiness, sadness and pain
Although I couldn't reassured by you, but I know
you will always love me, just like I will always love you.
May god bless you, Elias.
