Emotion

Behind every emotion has its own story.

I am now having an unknown emotion, I don't know how am I feeling now.

But at least I know, I don't feel much happy.

Sometimes, I really don't know, what I am to others.

Well, I don't really mind what others think about me.

Just, for some people that I categorised as important, I really willing to know,

what am I to you ?

I don't remember when is the last time I had cried.

May be, I am just too tired of everything, I don't even feel anything any more, may be.

My sky is mist, I am feeling so lost now.

What is the purpose I born to this world ? I have no goods.

I wonder if you realized, I did not smile much compared to last time.

I don't feel like smiling.

Sometimes I smiled, just to cover the embarrassing moment of our eye contact. 

Yea, I did smile, but not much like the past.

I wonder.. if you know how I feel now.

I feel.. miserable 

SPM-ing

SPM started a week ago @@
Well, as usual, I'm still wandering around...
Is not that, I don't like to study. Well, is just that, I feel so lost
I guess most of those teenage are like me
Without the goal, I guess, we won't have initiative to achieve it.

Anyway, it has been the 10 month and 11 day of me and my nana in relationship
:3 I'm glad that someone like you accompanied me all these time.
Anyway, thank you for entertaining my so called " traditional-minded" parents :P

:P Also, I wanted to thank my nana for getting me a bracelet with my name as b'day present
:3 Hehe, I loved it very muchieee
Next time, don't you dare to eat breads or save up the money to repair ur shoe for buying it
D: I will probably eat u ! Yeaaa, I mean it, EAATTT YOUUUU XD

Hmmm, my nana has visited me at 2/11, 3/11 and 4/11 :P
Hehe, I'm sorry that always wasting ur money on hotels, air tickets and so so.
:3 Yi Ma said, I'm lucky to have u, a person that love me so much, sek me so much.
Ahahahaha , :) so, rmb continue treating me as good as now :P
Thank you for spending money and time with me ~~ :P
I appreciate ur kindness, hehe, although it called " study tgt"
but ended up, I keep lying here lying there, lazying :3 hehe

Anyway, time really flew fast
For now, it's been November
I never knew that we have been together so long, and my secondary life is ending soon
Soon or sooner, I will be having my college life , uni life and aaa, boring working life :P
Hehe, nana, let's work hard tgt to accomplish our " Nana cafe " in the future :3
We will be having our Jia Min helps out the cafe :3
I love you ;) and byee~~ gonna cont studies :P