Emotion

Behind every emotion has its own story.

I am now having an unknown emotion, I don't know how am I feeling now.

But at least I know, I don't feel much happy.

Sometimes, I really don't know, what I am to others.

Well, I don't really mind what others think about me.

Just, for some people that I categorised as important, I really willing to know,

what am I to you ?

I don't remember when is the last time I had cried.

May be, I am just too tired of everything, I don't even feel anything any more, may be.

My sky is mist, I am feeling so lost now.

What is the purpose I born to this world ? I have no goods.

I wonder if you realized, I did not smile much compared to last time.

I don't feel like smiling.

Sometimes I smiled, just to cover the embarrassing moment of our eye contact. 

Yea, I did smile, but not much like the past.

I wonder.. if you know how I feel now.

I feel.. miserable 

SPM-ing

SPM started a week ago @@
Well, as usual, I'm still wandering around...
Is not that, I don't like to study. Well, is just that, I feel so lost
I guess most of those teenage are like me
Without the goal, I guess, we won't have initiative to achieve it.

Anyway, it has been the 10 month and 11 day of me and my nana in relationship
:3 I'm glad that someone like you accompanied me all these time.
Anyway, thank you for entertaining my so called " traditional-minded" parents :P

:P Also, I wanted to thank my nana for getting me a bracelet with my name as b'day present
:3 Hehe, I loved it very muchieee
Next time, don't you dare to eat breads or save up the money to repair ur shoe for buying it
D: I will probably eat u ! Yeaaa, I mean it, EAATTT YOUUUU XD

Hmmm, my nana has visited me at 2/11, 3/11 and 4/11 :P
Hehe, I'm sorry that always wasting ur money on hotels, air tickets and so so.
:3 Yi Ma said, I'm lucky to have u, a person that love me so much, sek me so much.
Ahahahaha , :) so, rmb continue treating me as good as now :P
Thank you for spending money and time with me ~~ :P
I appreciate ur kindness, hehe, although it called " study tgt"
but ended up, I keep lying here lying there, lazying :3 hehe

Anyway, time really flew fast
For now, it's been November
I never knew that we have been together so long, and my secondary life is ending soon
Soon or sooner, I will be having my college life , uni life and aaa, boring working life :P
Hehe, nana, let's work hard tgt to accomplish our " Nana cafe " in the future :3
We will be having our Jia Min helps out the cafe :3
I love you ;) and byee~~ gonna cont studies :P

21/9/2013

It's been a long time since I last updated my blog.
Now, I'm having my SPM trial exam :(
Soon, I will have my SPM exam @@

But honestly, I don't feel any stress .__.
Seeing friends beside me studying like mad fellows
Aaaa, I feel like, I'm so relaxing :P

Hmmm, so many things have happened and now I don't know where to start from.
Just wanna said that I love a lot person :P
:3
especially my nana ;)

;)

Helllooo :D

It's been a long time since I updated my blog ! :3
Helllloooooooooooooooo

前几天， 跟一个笨蛋一起度过，谢谢那个笨蛋
买了一个兔子给我 :3 我很喜欢
还有送我一个starbuck card, 之前的不见了 D:
Hmmmm, 就想跟你说 :3 我爱你

今天是我们在一起的4个月又4天 :)
我们伤心过，开心过，生气过，
谢谢你对我总是那么的体贴 :)

然后，你这个笨蛋，不要总是觉得自己不好！
真是的！
每次说到自己多烂
在我眼里 ！！！ 你是最好的， 最好的！！！！！ :3 知道了吗？

就觉得，有你很开心 :)
哈哈哈哈， 就知道你不舍得用，笨死了，杯子就是要用的嘛

我爱你~~

:3 4/3/2013

Exam is approaching ! D:
Nooooooooooooooooooo!
Wish that I will not get last in class *Prayyyy
:D At lease let me be 2nd LAST

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA -__-

That day I saw a guy with bunny hat :O
Cutee :3

Exam in few days time :(
And afterwards, I'm heading to Taiwan with friends :) Weeeeeeeee
I love you guys :D
And I'm going to sleep with my Pyong again :3
Nananananana

And now, my baby is currently rushing his assignment
jiayous :3
Love you

22/2/13 :(

我知道自己不成熟,时常乱发脾气,:( 有时候,在那边傻傻的等了好久好久,希望可以等到你, 真的有时候,会等到很心酸 就只躺在床上,一直检查手机,看看是不是我没留意到你的回复 每次等了好久,都会想哭,是不是什么东西让你忘了我? 然后,当我终于等到你时,却又对你发脾气, 我很尽力的去说服自己,说你一定有东西忙,不是你要的 有时候,你解释了,我还是很难过,难道真的没有那几秒通知我一声? 我不敢离开手机,怕你找我却找不到,就只好一直等下去 我不喜欢等,很不喜欢,我害怕会等不到我要的 到时候,又会找些理由来说服自己,让自己继续的等待,直到心死为止 然后,前几天,我不小心在天桥上把水壶跌下去, :( 我可怜的水壶,我看着它落地 D; 庆幸的是,没有坏 :) 啊啊啊,我不要那么粗心 这几天也很忙功课,忙课外活动 团员都很希望可以比赛拿到好成绩,我也希望可以, 不过,我很懒,也没有很有实力,所以不理解为什么我会是在第一组, 也罢,我尽量努力吧! :( 然后, :) 笨蛋,不好意思,对你发了脾气, i love you baby. <3

昨天等那个笨蛋等了好久,然后他回来后,我很开心,但是我们聊聊下,我不小心说错话 :( 和他吵架。其实,我不喜欢吵架 D; 过后就很伤心,也有点不开心,不甘心我等了这么久却这样。然后,想了好多好多,大概想到1.00am将,边哭边睡了。一整天也就一直想他,不知道他会不会因为我而被影响,:(我不想害他分心,工作不专心,等下他老板骂他怎么办D;或者,有害怕他没有在乎我,让我演独角戏,一个人担心伤心。回家后,就检查手机,也看到了他的留言,其实是有感动的,却又要面子,所以也只是还处于有点不开心的状态。过后,他好像真的失落了,我不忍心看他这样,D;也不想他这样,自己也不知道要怎样,不过心里是希望可以和好的,啦啦啦啦了一大堆,最后还是和好了;)谢谢你时常对我那么包容,哈哈哈,我的傻傻。希望可以永远跟你在一起 :)

18/02/2013

Now, my baby went to pick his mum back from the flight i miss him. Wanted to spend more time with him but it seems like when he is free, i'm not and when i'm, he is not :( Actually i wanted to talk to him more as we are hard to contact each other. Every time that he rejected my call due to busy or others reasons. I'm kind of disappoint or should i said that it is... sad? I know he is busy, i should be understanding... And also he did alot things for me. I know i should'nt be so selfish I just a little frustrate now. Yesterday, is bai tian gong all the fireworks pak pak pak @@ damn noisy And today after 2nd recess, i had a little stomach ace. I scare that it is food poisoning so much :X Luckily that it is not :) Fuuuu ~ And yesterday baby helped me finish my homework, xiexie ;) i love u too.

14/02/2013 ;)

Its been a long long long long long long time since i last update ;)
It's 2013 now, and i'm facing SPM soon :O
Ughhh, i'm kind of worry D: *worry worry worryy
I'm currently studying in Sr2ScB
Well, they are sooooooo smart :3
and met new friends there, all the sorlou? Hahahaha
They are nice ;) friendly and kind
So glad to meet u guys ! :3

Then now is still CNY and also Valentine :O
Happy Valentine Day and Chinese New Year to everyone :D

:3 Weeeee
I have alot of Ang Pao ! Pao pao pao pao pao pao :3
Hahahaha, pao pao pao pao pao pao
And yea, this year poker kept winning :O
Woaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah :3 Daaaaaaaamnnn lucky !

Still :3 I love my baby dudu
He's mine and mine and mine and will be mine ;)
Baby, i love u and will be always ;)