Studies and life

Its been awhile since I last update.
Meanwhile, I got braces done since I'm always a little unhappy with my slightly protruding teeth.

Basically, I am currently studying Year 2 in my university.
I applied for exchange to UK campus, and hopefully I will be shortlisted.
Studies have been heavier compared to last year.
As usually, there's tons of coursework. But there's even more now, sad.

I think it is always never too late to list out your resolution.
So, I guess I will use this opportunity to list mine out for this year.

• I hope people that I cared can remain healthy as always (Not resolution but I sincerely wish for this) 
• I hope I can stop procrastinating and being lazy all the time 
• If I am doing an internship this year, I wish I can get along with everyone and gain experience from the experienced. 

Lastly, just wanted to appreciate the affection your friends, family and people that cared for you. I might not be good at expressing myself, but thank you for all the love.

New Zealand trip

Is been so long since I last update this blog ( p/s: I even forgot about this blog's existence *laugh* )
Currently I am having a long summer break. like really long.
And, I went to New Zealand with my daddy and brother for 2 weeks time. Woohoo~~

The duration of my trip was 15 days (28/6 till 12/7). Which means, I just got back from the trip hehe. 
New Zealand was certainly beautiful, everywhere was green and blue.
Mountains, sheeps and cows were all along the road which was quite a spectacular view. 
It was cold there but I heard that the temperature was warm compared to the past. ( It was between -1 to 13 degree Celsius throughout my trip ) 

I felt quite thankful to my cousin for giving support and helping hand throughout the trip as my cousin migrated there for quite some time. We stayed at her house, and she provide us information and food for the trip. 

Probably because New Zealand is an Eco-friendly country, they preserve the nature as much as possible. The citizen there maintain a healthy lifestyle as it is noticeable that people around there prefer walking over transportation. 

We visited several parks in New Zealand and it was quite amazing, The park there was really really really big. One of the park that gave me a big impression was the Cornwall park. The park was really big, with lots of beautiful planting and animals. You could really feel close with the nature and relaxing around there. Furthermore, there are hills in the park which allow you to walk around for better surrounding view ( you could even see the whole city on top of the hill ! )

Beside staying in the north island, we flew to the south island as well. 
Since it was winter during our trip, we decided to try out skiing. YAYYYYY
IT IS THE FIRST EXPERIENCE OF SKIING IN MY LIFE AND IT IS DAMN NICE AND EXCITING. We went to the remarkable ski field as most of the ski field there were close ( the depth of snow haven't reach the required height for skiing ). I have quite a good smack directly right on my face when I was trying to ski. It was hard to control and I didn't know how to stop, leading to such incident. Luckily, I signed up for the adult group lesson there, and learnt some basic skill and knowledge about skiing. After a few try, I could control my movement much more better. Although it was fun, but to be honest, it was cold to death haha, It snow for a bit, just a bit, that day on the mountain, 

Next day after skiing, we went to Milford sound, which is a place that describe nature really well. It was an unforgettable trip as the view there was extremely beautiful. The place wasn't explore and develop into commercial. We sat on the cruise and tour around, seeing the mountains, waterfall and wild life animal such as seal and dolphins. And the lake there was clear and steady, leads to a "mirror" view effect. You could clearly see the reflection of sky and mountains, connecting together as an image. 

Extreme sports and outdoor activities are well-known there. It was quite pricey after conversion but since I travel so far here, why not have a try of it? I did my first bungee jump here in Kawarau bridge which is also the world first bungee site. IT WAS VERY EXCITING AND FUN BUT SCARY IN THE SAME TIME THAT I STILL REMEMBER THE FEELING OF IT. You can't feel the rope until u reach the bottom of the jump, like seriously, U CAN'T FEEL THE ROPE. It takes lots of courage for jumping off the "cliff", But believe me, it is worthy, you won't regret doing so, the feeling after the jump is simply amazing that I don't know how to describe it with words. Before I end this section, I have to say that we are quite lucky to see a view of a man bungee jump in naked, completely naked, even without the underwear on. The crew said that it is a very rare sight and I think so too haha *laugh* 

After we flew back to north island to continue our trip, we went to Rotorua as it is famous for the volcanic site. We also visited the glowworm cave in Waitomo. I have to admit that the glowworm cave is really beautiful that I am willing to spend time in there again. No picture is allow throughout the exploration in the cave. We learnt about the facts of glowworm from their born till death. The most impressive experience in that cave was sitting the boat passing the river in complete dark. You could lift your head up and look around. The view was like galaxy, but shinning in blue and green. 

There's still much more places that I visited, and this trip is worthy and excellent although we have some argument during the trip. Might visit this beautiful place again next time ( not so soon ) if possible haha. Woooahhhh. 

22/11/15

A new life event occurs

Currently I have a bae hehe

Although he is not that attractive by appearance except his sexy back

But he is mmm perfect? In all other aspect 

University life had been fun until now, and may be future too

Met a lot of great friends here

But of course, friends I made in the past still remain in contact as well 

Which makes me felt glad as I always worried that I'm forgotten by others haha

I guess I should've put some faith in people surrounding me

I love you all so much :b 

Went to pavilion yesterday with the pig :3 

Was blocked and lots of police cars and VIP cars pass by

I wonder if President Obama is in there? Ahaha so lucky ~~ 

And even funnier, during the morning date with Chuan Fong 

We was paparazzi by an unknown 

Probably his secondary school friend HAHA, such an odd occurrence 

Either way, :3 it's such a great thing to be together with you aha

University Life

Is good to have a solid resolve
For the moment, I made lots of friends cause I overcame my shyness
University life was much more busier than what I expected
But I enjoyed it very much

The amount of coursework is gradually increasing
Group discussion and studying was quite efficient as I get to learn new stuff from others
Glad that I always have person supporting me

As my registration was late, the accommodation room doesn't have any choices left
I chose the share room which leads me to have room-mates now
It doesn't seems bad like what I am expecting
Everyone was kind and friendly
Hopefully we will maintain our "room-mate ship" well hehe

Surprisingly, I met a guy coincidently when I want to print notes for the next lecturer lesson
He was a senior of mine, a year 4 civil engineering student
He has a nice appearance, tall, well build body and yeah attractive voice
I was quite attracted by him
But since I don't really know him well
I guess I will just remain as a fan girl ahahaha

Lastly, may my university life be interesting and fun
Thank you for those who helped me until now

New chapter

I'm starting my university in a week time

As usual, I think I will be shy and nervous to greet my new friends ?

Let's hope everything will be fine haha

As time passes, some of my friends that were once close with me starting to feel distance

I guess, things does fade 

Hopefully they get to meet great friends in my place 

In the same time, I'm glad to have people that always care for me

I always knew I'm not a great person to begin with 

I don't need anything in return, so please don't stop caring for me 

That's all I wished for 

Midnight

My ex got himself a new girlfriend again
Unexpectedly, I felt sad knowing about it
I was quite certain that I'd put down the past relationship of ours
But unfortunately, I guess things doesn't develop as what you expect it will be
After knowing it, I cried the whole night until now
I guess it will be a sleepless night today?
Do I still love him?
I'm not sure about it, but I guess I do care about him
I told him that we should lessen our contact for his sake
But honestly, it was for myself
It will be too hurt to know how happy he is with the person being by his side that wasn't me
I guess I tried too hard hiding my feelings for him after our broke up
Hopefully, this will be the last time that I will cry for you
Perhaps, cutting off contact with you will be the best option
As I won't be hurt anymore
I wonder, how long does it takes for it to heal?

30.6.15

This is the last day of June
My A level program officially end today
The memories that we shared during this one and a half year was great
Although I regret taking A level as it is tough
But as it is over now, I probably will miss everyone

The Langkawi trip I went with my college friends was fun
I'm glad that I made great friends
I really like everyone, so I guess I will make a selfish wish for myself
I hope everyone will stay being friends as long as possible.

2015

About 2 months have passed for this " new " year, and I've sick twice 

Such a weak body I have :/ 

It doesn't really surprise me anymore, those who accompanied me last year wasn't those I'm spending time with now. 

At least I'm pleased that those who meant a lot to me is still with me now. 

I hope our friendship last :)

Probably we're just too blindly seeking for someone who will understand us instead of appreciating those who stayed with us all these time. 

I'm glad I met you guys, that will stayed with me unconditionally. 

December

My ex came to visit for the past few days
After so long, I guess it will be a lie if I say I don't miss him.

I have lots of shortcoming
However, he bear it
I like the way he arrange his time and make effort for me
It makes me feel like, I'm worthy to him.
I wonder, if the place we lived is nearer, will we end differently?

Moment with Bentard

Okayy, I'm going to update from last wednesday :3
Last Wednesday was the last day of my trial exam. Hehe
Went to Sunway Pyramid with Jin An :)
Had a great lunch
And well, last round of Guardian of the Galaxy in Luxe cinema
Hmm, personal opinion
Although luxe is 1.5 time more expensive than normal ticket
But, it do has comfy seating :P
Spacious and well, great seating that wont block shorty view like me :D
It was a great day indeed hehe
And, Jin An, you drove well :) steady driver

Next, Friday
A second hit to Mitasu, but ended up with great disappointment :(
T__T I will never try to go there any more ( may be ) ahaha
Their buffet is only available for dinner hour or public holiday
Unfortunately :( it was a weekday lunch time that day
So, Yam and I went to The Good Batch for lunch
Mmmm, the food there was nice, really nice, super nice :)
Probably will have a next try there agn :P
And to consult our broken heart,
We went to had dessert at Miam Miam
The Macha soufflé was nice :) so as the berry parfait ? ( something like that )

I'm skipping Sunday :P although I had some activities that day,
because I can't wait for today :3

Todayy :D
Went to Paradigm mall with Jin An ^^
Emm, ugh D: I lost in the parking lot LOL
and so, the guard helped me ahahaha
thank you guard :P
Tried Sukiya ( Japanese hot pot ) with Jin An today
Mmm, the food is not bad
and time with Jin An is always great haha
Bought some books for sister in popular
and well, a kind Jin An take them for me :P thank you
Honestly, I think I'm getting more and more obese to you, hahaha
Another great day, with someone important to me ;) 

23.8.14

It's been a bad month
Several sad things happened
But no matter how bad a month is, there'll always be something good to balance it :)

Well, here comes the bad one first :o
I bang my car during a visit to Ms Gladys's daughter full month party.
Well, the main point is not the car of course
Most importantly, no one is injured :x
I felt sorry to those that were in my car
And well, of course my family
Sorry, my careless brought trouble to everyone :x I will be more aware and learn from my lesson.

I didn't really remember much what bad things happened,
:o but well, that was the main one. So here comes the good part. :)

The owner of the car that I bang, he was a kind man
Thank you for tolerating a careless driver like me haha :)

Then, friends that keeps on supporting me until I feel better
Thank you for being there with me

And well, my family for taking responsibility for all my actions
Thank you.

Somehow, the confused feelings that I had is clear now
It would be a lie if I say I don't want you.
But, for our good, I think the way we remain now is great.
We had a lot of good moment, I'm not sure if you think the same way, but it is to me :p
I'll save a place for you somewhere in my heart ;)

9.8.14

It's August now :) 

I guess, it's true that people move on. 

It's just the matter of time.

Let the past be the past

I felt sorry and sad to myself, that'd been so pathetic over you last time

But, is all over now. 

Lately, I've been waking up in tears

I don't remember what I dreamt, I just know, it is a sad dream.

There's too many good people around me, be there for me when I'm in need. 

If it's possible, can I make a wish ? 

A wish for you guys to stay with me as long as possible. 

And, having a confused feeling now.

I'm not sure if I have feeling towards him or just too depending on him.

Of course, I wish it is the latter one.

I'm afraid of losing 

They said, trying is better than regret.

But, I rather regret than losing you. 

Raya Holiday

Before starting, there's something I want to say.
If this is your way of showing your care,
Please don't. I won't want to encounter you any more.
If it's just my fantasie. Then just ignore what I want u to know.
Don't add on my debt to you, I won't return.

And so, now's Raya holiday yay :3

But couldn't hangout that much like the last holiday :x
Or else, I won't have enough time for studies

Having great friends is the best thing in this world
Probably, I have really a lot a lot of people that care about me
It's my honor having u guys.

It's late night now, and I'm feeling hungry :/
I should go to sleep :p hehe.

Nighty 😊❤️ everyone that I love

11.7.14

Productive Friday .

We get to met our replacement teacher , Ranju.
Damn stict sio.

After finishing college,
Went to hop hop bunny cafe. Yay ~~~

Gets to interact with bunnies :D
But, the urine of the bunny
Got in my pant D:
So I went to toilet to clean up myself
Ended up, being lock inside ( the locker spoilt, drop off )

Afterwards, went to Wei Xia mummy's home yay~~
Play for a moment and then rush home  to bath

Afterwards, Megan pick me up and so so.
We took Sean's car to Mun Kay hse.

It is a successful reunion party this time yea !
Nearly 100% attended. :)

Had a lot of funs :P

Then, someone suggested to go for round 2 in the pub
So I went to the pub for the 1st time :o

Afterwards, Dickson drive me home.
;)

HAHAHA, but the funniest part is
I mistaken my pencil box as wallet and went out for this hangout.

And then, felt sorry to my parents ;p
That have to endure this bad daughter
That always hangout until late mid night .

9.7.14

Sem 2 starts, current status : trying hard to be hardworking :p
Bad result D:

Friends in college, somehow feel more family-like than secondary sch haha.
Not sure if it is a good or bad news
Probably good, may be.

Among all classmate, there's few which is really nice .
Felt so blessed having u guys in my life
Although I do not believe much in forever anymore
I really wish, we could stay together forever.

I'm not sure what love is
But if it is
Feeling happy when you're with me
Looking forward the time with you
Feel safe if you're by my side whenever what happened.

Then may be, there's someone that I held such feeling now.

But, I'm afraid of losing, so I'll just stay on the spot.
And wait for this feeling to fade .

For now, just study hard :)

29.5.14

Once, we were foolish, we cry over small little things 

We believe in the impossible 

We blame the others for our faulty 

We smile over everything 

Time pass, we grow, we change. 

Is good to record down ur life

When you read back, you leave a smile, realize how stupid we were back then

All the trauma we thought we couldn't bare over, 

We overcame. 

Promises, target that we set last time

Forgotten in the past. 

Belief, became nothing but merely a joke

Nothing will be the same anymore

The dream we had, is so beautiful that I doesn't want to wake from it

But still, it's just a dream

Regardless how u feel, a dream is a dream 

When the dream ended, u have to move on. 

It might be hard, 

There'll be times that we wanted to collapse back into the dream

But, someday, we will be looking back, and realize our stupidity now. 

And that day, we will leave a smile again. 

11.5.2014

Like daughter like mum ? 

Today is Mother's Day, but my mum is not by ourside 

Guess why? 

Because she accidentally brought an air ticker under her name when she's helping her friend to buy

Aish. And then, it can't be refund 

So instead of wasting it, mum went for it

Ahh, 1 week 

Me

The one that couldn't let it go is just me.
Every perception of me about you is just my fantasy.

It's about time to end my foolishness.
It's time to wake up, after discovering so much.

Everything has ended.
Everything will be okay.

It will just be a memory to be forgotten.
Smile and live on :)

Calm

My college holiday started few days ago :)
Did nothing except for lazying the whole day haha. Lol

Feel more stable and calm now
Just sometime, when I miss you, I will wonder what are you doing.

As I promised both of us before,
until the day I completely put down you, I will only add back you as friend in FB
I wonder, how long will it be ?

Sometimes, I just feel silly and pathetic
After our broke up, you move on so quickly
And me , still staying on the same spot hoping for so called miracle happens.
I wonder, what makes me attached to you so much? Hmm, I don't know.

For the moment, I had rejected a few confession
Just feeling like, I'm not ready for the next yet, I don't want to be so irresponsible in my relationship, it is unfair for both side.
Also, for the moment, you are the only one I had such feeling to.

Just like one of my pal said,
One day, I will eventually let go of it and realize how silly and stupid I'm now

For now, I have to decide what I'm going to choose next
This Friday, I'm going to experience German school life
Then, I will have to decide to continue what I'm doing now or start a new life in Germany
No matter which path I choose, as long as I'm happy will do :)

I'm fine now, how about you ?
Do you miss me, like I miss you ;) ?

I did not forget

I guess you won't be seeing this anymore.

That's why I dare to type out my feeling now.

All those pretty words I said to you, is to make sure that you can put me down.

I always knew, you are suffering in silence when I eye contact with you,

your eyes looks so sad, that I don't even know how to consult you.

so I just smile as much as possible, since when I smiled, I laughed, you will follow as well.

I can just assume that your life now is much better than with me.

Since that, you have someone that can take care of you. 

I'm always feeling sorry that I couldn't give you what you want, " Future"

No doubt, everyone wants a relationship where that can feel their future.

While be with me, you can't share anything with me.

So if you remember, our last call, I cried out loud keep repeating sorry

Yea, I mean it, I really feel so sorry towards you.. even now

I know, it is nearly impossible to forget someone that is so meaningful to you

That's why I never plan to forget you before

I also knew, that you won't forget me. Well, I don't know how to put in the words, is just my feeling, my believes.

I always believes you.

For now, I stopped finding you

Because I knew, how much suffer you gain when you face me, just like when I face you.

Really, is enough. 

I don't want to cause more pain on you anymore

I don't mind just disappear if you feel happy with it.

They said, Libra is willing to make all the changes and take all the pain and scarifies.

Yea, I'm.

I don't need you to know, doesn't mean I don't feel so.

What is the point of letting you know? Claim your credits ?

Nah, that's not what I want, all I want is just your smile

As long as you smiled, every pain will just wore off.

I know, you are still hiding everything by yourself, baring everything by yourself

I wish that you will know, 

I'm always here, somewhere that you couldn't see, couldn't know,

sharing your happiness, sadness and pain

Although I couldn't reassured by you, but I know

you will always love me, just like I will always love you.

May god bless you, Elias.