Emotion

Behind every emotion has its own story.

I am now having an unknown emotion, I don't know how am I feeling now.

But at least I know, I don't feel much happy.

Sometimes, I really don't know, what I am to others.

Well, I don't really mind what others think about me.

Just, for some people that I categorised as important, I really willing to know,

what am I to you ?

I don't remember when is the last time I had cried.

May be, I am just too tired of everything, I don't even feel anything any more, may be.

My sky is mist, I am feeling so lost now.

What is the purpose I born to this world ? I have no goods.

I wonder if you realized, I did not smile much compared to last time.

I don't feel like smiling.

Sometimes I smiled, just to cover the embarrassing moment of our eye contact. 

Yea, I did smile, but not much like the past.

I wonder.. if you know how I feel now.

I feel.. miserable 

SPM-ing

SPM started a week ago @@
Well, as usual, I'm still wandering around...
Is not that, I don't like to study. Well, is just that, I feel so lost
I guess most of those teenage are like me
Without the goal, I guess, we won't have initiative to achieve it.

Anyway, it has been the 10 month and 11 day of me and my nana in relationship
:3 I'm glad that someone like you accompanied me all these time.
Anyway, thank you for entertaining my so called " traditional-minded" parents :P

:P Also, I wanted to thank my nana for getting me a bracelet with my name as b'day present
:3 Hehe, I loved it very muchieee
Next time, don't you dare to eat breads or save up the money to repair ur shoe for buying it
D: I will probably eat u ! Yeaaa, I mean it, EAATTT YOUUUU XD

Hmmm, my nana has visited me at 2/11, 3/11 and 4/11 :P
Hehe, I'm sorry that always wasting ur money on hotels, air tickets and so so.
:3 Yi Ma said, I'm lucky to have u, a person that love me so much, sek me so much.
Ahahahaha , :) so, rmb continue treating me as good as now :P
Thank you for spending money and time with me ~~ :P
I appreciate ur kindness, hehe, although it called " study tgt"
but ended up, I keep lying here lying there, lazying :3 hehe

Anyway, time really flew fast
For now, it's been November
I never knew that we have been together so long, and my secondary life is ending soon
Soon or sooner, I will be having my college life , uni life and aaa, boring working life :P
Hehe, nana, let's work hard tgt to accomplish our " Nana cafe " in the future :3
We will be having our Jia Min helps out the cafe :3
I love you ;) and byee~~ gonna cont studies :P

21/9/2013

It's been a long time since I last updated my blog.
Now, I'm having my SPM trial exam :(
Soon, I will have my SPM exam @@

But honestly, I don't feel any stress .__.
Seeing friends beside me studying like mad fellows
Aaaa, I feel like, I'm so relaxing :P

Hmmm, so many things have happened and now I don't know where to start from.
Just wanna said that I love a lot person :P
:3
especially my nana ;)

;)

Helllooo :D

It's been a long time since I updated my blog ! :3
Helllloooooooooooooooo

前几天， 跟一个笨蛋一起度过，谢谢那个笨蛋
买了一个兔子给我 :3 我很喜欢
还有送我一个starbuck card, 之前的不见了 D:
Hmmmm, 就想跟你说 :3 我爱你

今天是我们在一起的4个月又4天 :)
我们伤心过，开心过，生气过，
谢谢你对我总是那么的体贴 :)

然后，你这个笨蛋，不要总是觉得自己不好！
真是的！
每次说到自己多烂
在我眼里 ！！！ 你是最好的， 最好的！！！！！ :3 知道了吗？

就觉得，有你很开心 :)
哈哈哈哈， 就知道你不舍得用，笨死了，杯子就是要用的嘛

我爱你~~

:3 4/3/2013

Exam is approaching ! D:
Nooooooooooooooooooo!
Wish that I will not get last in class *Prayyyy
:D At lease let me be 2nd LAST

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA -__-

That day I saw a guy with bunny hat :O
Cutee :3

Exam in few days time :(
And afterwards, I'm heading to Taiwan with friends :) Weeeeeeeee
I love you guys :D
And I'm going to sleep with my Pyong again :3
Nananananana

And now, my baby is currently rushing his assignment
jiayous :3
Love you

22/2/13 :(

我知道自己不成熟,时常乱发脾气,:( 有时候,在那边傻傻的等了好久好久,希望可以等到你, 真的有时候,会等到很心酸 就只躺在床上,一直检查手机,看看是不是我没留意到你的回复 每次等了好久,都会想哭,是不是什么东西让你忘了我? 然后,当我终于等到你时,却又对你发脾气, 我很尽力的去说服自己,说你一定有东西忙,不是你要的 有时候,你解释了,我还是很难过,难道真的没有那几秒通知我一声? 我不敢离开手机,怕你找我却找不到,就只好一直等下去 我不喜欢等,很不喜欢,我害怕会等不到我要的 到时候,又会找些理由来说服自己,让自己继续的等待,直到心死为止 然后,前几天,我不小心在天桥上把水壶跌下去, :( 我可怜的水壶,我看着它落地 D; 庆幸的是,没有坏 :) 啊啊啊,我不要那么粗心 这几天也很忙功课,忙课外活动 团员都很希望可以比赛拿到好成绩,我也希望可以, 不过,我很懒,也没有很有实力,所以不理解为什么我会是在第一组, 也罢,我尽量努力吧! :( 然后, :) 笨蛋,不好意思,对你发了脾气, i love you baby. <3

昨天等那个笨蛋等了好久,然后他回来后,我很开心,但是我们聊聊下,我不小心说错话 :( 和他吵架。其实,我不喜欢吵架 D; 过后就很伤心,也有点不开心,不甘心我等了这么久却这样。然后,想了好多好多,大概想到1.00am将,边哭边睡了。一整天也就一直想他,不知道他会不会因为我而被影响,:(我不想害他分心,工作不专心,等下他老板骂他怎么办D;或者,有害怕他没有在乎我,让我演独角戏,一个人担心伤心。回家后,就检查手机,也看到了他的留言,其实是有感动的,却又要面子,所以也只是还处于有点不开心的状态。过后,他好像真的失落了,我不忍心看他这样,D;也不想他这样,自己也不知道要怎样,不过心里是希望可以和好的,啦啦啦啦了一大堆,最后还是和好了;)谢谢你时常对我那么包容,哈哈哈,我的傻傻。希望可以永远跟你在一起 :)